sendirian di suatu sore yang gloomy, ah ingin menyanyi...

aku kesepiaannn...hwa..hwa...hwa...

when i decided to leave him, i know that i left a part of me there,
my love my dear love...i know it hurts, i know it does, and the pain will still be aching in our heart for the time that i dont even know until when...
but this is the rightest way my love, for by being brave and encouraging ourselves to open our eyes would make us grow...to see the truth...to let our bare feets feel the real coldness of the grass in the misty moor...
one day, if we finally have fully grown, we will be able to look back to this one particular point in our live when we are forced to leave our warm and steady hiding cave, and smile...feeling glad that at the least point we know that we had finally able to let go our deepest feeling that had been locked inside for a long time...the feeling called courage...for we know that only by trusting ourselves with our own courage, we could open our eyes and see the world, feel the world with our most honesty, not with superficiality...

i love you, i hope you know that... and i guess that 'love' is far beyond romance now, i love you because i care for you, i want to see you grow, i want to see you smile to the world because i know you could, i want to see you run fast to reach your dreams...
so please dont cry... you are more than everything to me, you are a part of me...my best friend that i care for...

i want you to know that i could take care of myself, no need to be worry... :) i'm reaching my sunshine, i'm running and hopping and cheering and smiling to my dreams, i will see the world with my own eyes, with honesty and with hope :)

jadi hari ini, tanggal 27, aku tahu aku kesepian dan aku memikirkanmu... i hope ur doing fine there :) aku tidak lupa tanggal ini, dan meski tidak kulakukan lagi meneleponmu di tengah malam hanya untuk mengucapkan selamat tanggal 27, aku memeluk tanggal ini, tanggal kita. dan aku akan tersenyum karena hati ini tahu bahwa aku, dan kamu, dan the rest of the world akan baik-baik saja.

dan matahari, matahari yang kumiliki, menggenggam tanganku erat hari ini dan membuat hari yang dingin ini menghangat... setidaknya di hatiku.
hujanku, suatu hari nanti akan kubawa kamu pada matahari.

dan matahariku...bersinar hari ini.
biarkan aku tersenyum untukmu?

---sisie---